9/11 Memories

I have been reading and watching about the 10th Anniversary of 9/11, and it has brought back such incredibly strong emotions for me.  Ten years ago, I was anxiously waiting for Maximilian to be born.  We had just moved into our first home, and we were about to be parents.  There were so many changes in our lives, and then the towers came crashing down.  

I wrote in my journal:

  I am still waiting to have the baby.  We made it easily through the move, and everything has gone well.  Yet, the world has changed forever and forever because of what hapened yesterday on September 11, 2001.

Max, you will read this someday.  Will you understand the horror of it all?  Yesterday, the World Trade Towers in New York City fell to the earth due to terrorist attacks:  planes acting as human bombs crashed into both towers.  

The world will never be the same again.

How will I understand the world you are about to inherit?  How will you understand this world?  How do we go forward?  How do we go on?  I am so saddened by the world we live in right now, yet I really want to meet you. I need you to begin your life and I need to give you everything that will allow you to have a good life and I hope you will live in a safe and happy world."

So, forward we have marched, and ten years have gone by, and actually, they have been such fantastic years because of my two special sons: Maximilian and Bruno.  
  
There will always be adversity and strife in the world, but I struggle with how to prepare the boys for this and make them resilient, and also able to question and wonder about how to make this world better.  Out of 9/11 came a strong urge to raise humble caring individuals that are not self-indulgent, self-absorbed, and pessimistic human beings.  I am still on this quest.....